Why I love WOW

Recently I wrote about how much I hated world of warcraft and how if I were stronger I would quit. Well tonight, or as I should say as its now morning, last night, I was reminded why I play this game. I killed a boss called anub'arak in hard mode, a boss which we have been wiping on for a long time now, by the end of it as I watched his health go down I became quite excited, my heart beat faster and my hands began to shake, an adrenaline rush in other words. In the golden days of my wow playing life (in the burning crusade expansion, and while I was at university) this feeling was a regular occurrence every time I killed a new boss, with the greatest experience for me being on killing Illidan, alas I never made it to Kil'Jaden. When the new expansion came out I only very rarely experienced this rush, in fact only once before tonight. I had almost forgotten how good it made me feel, awake, alert and alive, (yes I do realise exactly how sad and rather pathetic this makes me seem, but to each his own) and happy. Happiness is rare for me but now I do feel happy, the woes of my life are forgotten, at least until the rush wares off. I had thought that wow would not let me feel this sensation anymore, that it was stale and I was searching in vain for experiences that were wholly confined to the past, but tonight proved me wrong and has shown me why I play this game and suffer through all its nightmarish attributes. I have also posted about what I called a poison chalice, a social environment where the normal social contract is only loosely held to thanks to the ease of moving on, however tonight I actually feel rather well disposed to my guild mates, without them I would not have killed this boss, and with them I can share in the enjoyment , and the relief of having Finally killed it. While a burden shared is a burden halved, a joy shared is a joy doubled

So tonight has been good on several levels, first I found out I still enjoy wow as much as ever, second, I killed a very hard boss, and third even though I write this several hours later I still feel, I believe the term is buzzed. Now I am still able to acknowledge just how bad wow is for me, and I know this will only draw me in deeper into the pit of an actual addiction. (for me this point is reached when I begin to make up imaginary friends to get out of seeing real friends because I want to play wow, a place I have been before and only with much effort left). But still at the moment I cannot see this as a bad thing I simply enjoyed my self far too much. Blizzard you have done your job exceedingly well.